Friday, October 31, 2003 Y
Din do much of da java & html thingy today. Was feeling kinda lazy. duhs! Well, i managed to upload some new pix into da gallery. i'm jus too slack to start on my "Links" & "Pals" page. Hmms..*touches chin* i'm procrastinating. HEEHEHEE! i'm still feeling very feeble even thou i'm on da road to recovery frm da stupid viral fever but it's party day later! Everywhere's having Halloween parties. Zouk & Centro would prolly be mobbed by weirdos. Urm..i mean peeps in weird costumes. *glees* Ohh! i'm so thrilled at da tot of going to a Halloween party but seems like i'm stuck at home. Haven't realli make any plans, no destination, no companions! Tell mi wot shud i do? Party or not? *ponders*
Yours truly . . . 10/31/2003 04:09:00 AM
Thursday, October 30, 2003 Y
Finally accomplished some of da html & java stuffs for this blog site. Put in quite a lot of effort into it okie! Least i bother to search for da codes. Oh my..i'm yawning away. Guess i was too engrossed in finishing up something before i go to bed yeah. i fiddled wif this shit da moment i woke up at ard 11am. Hahaha! This is indeed my 1st time doing so much for a blog. U may ask mi why..so WHY? Reason being : to convince myself tat once i put my mind into a matter, i will persevere & finish up woteva is needed. U called it pure determination? *shrugs* Somehow i feel tat part of da motivation stems frm Vin. He doesn't realli insipires mi but he sorta made mi realised my past wrong-doings & spurred mi to changed for da better. Not for him but for myself. i'm glad to haf him in my life. Oooooh! Time to snooze! *snorts*
Yours truly . . . 10/30/2003 03:58:00 AM
Wednesday, October 29, 2003 Y
This is the dunno how many umpteen times i've woken up frm my slp. Since da day i've fallen ill, i've been waking up in da middle of da nite at odd hours which i usually dun. Weird. Vin thinks tat i'm having nitemares. =.= bah! Well, i hope i won't be waking up in beads of sweat later, screaming da shit outta my lungs!
My poor Vin is still revising his work. It realli pains mi to see him study till dawn. But wot to do..he's got major exams coming up real soon. Sighs. i hope he can pull thru & make it. Dearie..jia you! Wo dui ni you xing xin wor. Dun apply too much pressure on urself k? Jus do ur best..i noe u can make it. U can do it!
*cheerios*
Yours truly . . . 10/29/2003 05:48:00 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2003 Y
Been sick since Sunday. Running a high temperature of 39.2°C, prolly resulting mi having headache, coughed & flu. Went to da doctor's late late nite & was diagnosed wif Viral Fever. i wonder wot's tat diagnosis is all about
Coincidently, Roy, Suwen & Jarvis were down wif da same illness.
Vin was sms-ing mi all da while. He's so sweet, asking mi how am i, am i feeling better, eaten already, how's my headache, has my fever subside..blah blah. i'm touched by his lil actions, da care & concern he showered mi. He warmed my heart. He said he's sad tat he can't be by my side at da period of time but i can sense his intentions. i melted upon receiving tat particular sms. *awwww*
Saturday was spent monotonously. Jarvis came to pick mi up at my place before heading Bugis to meet Suwen. They had their dinner at V8 while i jus ordered a drink. After tat they're going to Siglap. Called Roy & he said he's on his way to Chris's place to watch soccer, so i told him tat i'll be joining in later. i din join Jarvis & Suwen but took a lift till Siglap. Thanx yea! So i got home, changed & walked over to Chris's place. Live match on Man Utd vs Fulham. Can't believe Man Utd lost to Fulham by 2 goals! Was kinda disappointed by the match-end results.
Most of da time yesterday was a bed-ridden day for mi. i couldn't get outta bed! Da pain was so damn terrible tat i even cried! Never felt so weak man. Luckily i'm feeling better after taking my medication today. My fever subsided, nose cleared but still having a lil cough. Worse of all..MY HEADACHE'S NOT GONE YET!
Yours truly . . . 10/28/2003 10:44:00 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2003 Y
Down Zouk for
JUICE 5th Anniversary Party. Doors are supposedly opened at 9.30pm but was delayed for quite awhile. Heaps of people turned up for da event & da queue was stretched almost close to da bridge nearby. Prolly it's da free flow of
Tiger Beer &
Smirnoff Vodka tat attracted da
kiasu party animals. *Singaporeans made up da most crowd*
Almost every bar counter was jam-packed with peeps redeeming their booze & it was tough to squeeze in da crowd considering my petite build. Anyway i had my concentrated dose of 5 vodka orange & 2 vodka 7-up. Da amount was enuff for mi to get high cos before tat i've taken some stuffs & junked. Zouk was playing Progressive House but i din get to enjoy myself. In fact i was crestfallen due to a sms i received earlier on before i went down Zouk.
Vin was hospitalised. Da sms was sent by his fren. My party mood dived. i felt so perturbed cos i din even noe wot da hell was happening. Thou i'm upset by it i still put up a brave front & tried enjoying myself. It was dunno until when i jus couldn't control my tears anymore & started crying.
i dunno wot came over mi..da fact tat i dunno wot happened to him or issit da fear of losing him in mi. i jus can't stop sobbing. Daniel &
jO dragged mi outta zouk & began comforting mi. Daniel lent mi his shoulder to cry on. Thanx my fren. i got better gradually & even took some pics with Dan &
jO. After tat we went back in.
Somehow da matter hasn't got off my mind & again sobbed at da sight of linz. She hugged mi & hushed mi & comforted mi. i feel so lost at tat period of time. Nothing's on my mind except Vin. Awhile later, i was brought outta zouk.
jO was outside waiting for mi. She's hell pist with mi, including Dan. i remembered her pushing mi away. i noe i'm in da wrong but i'm jus pure stubborn & wildful. i realli hope she'll forgive mi this once.
jO & i took a cab down Centro to look for michie, miki & june. Michie, miki & june were comforting mi & i hugged michie & cried on her. Miki dried my tears for mi. i'm touched by their care & concern considering tat i dunno them tat long. Coincidently my cousin,
Ash was at Centro too & happened tat she noes my group of frens. So embarrassing tat she saw mi in such a horrible state. Thou i'm not tat close to her i felt like pouring out my woes to her but eventually i din. She talked to mi & asked mi why din i wanna go home. i jus dun feel like going back home. It jus hurts. i dunno why..for no apparent reason, i jus feel hurt when i'm back at home.
jO sent mi back home anyway. Vin did sms
jO. i can't seem to noe wot he's thinking. He sms
jO cos he's concern about mi? If he's concern about mi why din he tell mi why is he hospitalised? Dan came to a conclusion tat Vin wans mi to enjoy my clubbing session & doesn't wan mi to worry but how could i not get worried about someone whom i treasured so much? Is there a communication breakdown between us? i can't seem to figure all these out.
Vin missed call mi when i jus stepped into my house. So i called him back. He asked mi where am i & i told him i'm back home already. i asked him wot happened to him, he doesn't wanna tell. He said he's fine..maybe..i'm not sure. Den da connection got cut. He sms mi & told mi tat i've disappointed him time & time again. i broke my promise for not getting drunk & i got drunk which made him worry even more for mi. He wans mi to change but not for him, instead for my own good. He added tat he's not as good as wot i think. i'm getting a lil confused here.
Sighs. Till now, i'm still worried about him. i can't seem to get him off my mind..
i'm missing u Vin..
Currently feeling: 
Yours truly . . . 10/25/2003 05:35:00 PM
Friday, October 24, 2003 Y
It's late in da nite & i'm penning down some lil tots. I dunno wot spurred mi into setting up this blog site. Maybe i'm bort cos i've got nothing else better to do..maybe i jus needa rant..maybe it's
vin.
Yours truly . . . 10/24/2003 05:28:00 AM
