Got my hair dyed last evening somewhere around da neighbourhood. Cheap job which cost mi SGD $50. Eunice was with mi too. Both of us chosen shades of red. Hers belonged to da kinda more obvious colour while mine was those which will show da vibrant colour everytime i wash it. HEE! Nice..i love my new hair! =P

But somehow, my ear's giving mi some problems. i think my ear drum is swollen & tat hurts alot. Da pain's simply unbearable. This has greatly affected my speech & i cudn't eat well. Wheneva i move my jaw i will start to feel da pricking pain! i had this once before, treated & recovered. i wonder wot makes this comes back. Realli pist mi off! Wrong timing somemore..Chinese New Year's jus like 1 day ahead. Awww..can't munch on those goodies. *sadded*

Anyway..had dinner @ Pastamania with darling jO on Monday nite. After dinner we shopped around for my top to wear during CNY. Finally, a white shirt caught our eyes @ G2000. Darling jO asked mi to try on da shirt & it fits perfectly. So i got da top @ SGD $49. LOL..quite costly yeah? We headed Starbucks for kopi session together wif Rovin. He came to meet us up after he brought his cat, Mimi, to da vet in Simei @ Pets Safari. He's such a fun-loving boy. LOL!! So we tok a lil cok there & decided to slack more @ S-11. We called Michie cos she's jus living upstairs but when she picked up her mobile, she told us she's on da train, heading home soon. So i asked her whether she wanna join us anot & she agreed. She came wif Katherine. They had been shopping da whole day & both of them were complaining of fatigue. haha. We decided to call it a day @ about 3am.

Michie & Kat went back home. So Rovin, darling jO & i, walked towards 7-11 to get some food. Somehow, we ended up @ Cheers, buying cup noodles.

i got home at about 3.50am & was dead beat. Still, i managed to stay awake for awhile, tok a lil to frens before dozing off to sleep. *smiles*

i got this @ 77th Street. Rawks isn't it?! Paul Van Dyk's da man! He'll be having his gig @ Powerhouse on da 22nd January 2004. Unfortunately, it falls on day 1 of CNY. i reckon not much peeps wud turn up.



He's gud looking yeah? Hahaha. i shall paste it on my wall & ogle at him everynite before i sleep. *chuckles* Oh..i think i prefer Armin. Blehs! =PpP~

Jus got home frm Zouk. Was actually a bad day for mi. Kena aeroplaned. Shall not elaborate further. Breaks in Phuture was great & it ended @ 4am! hurhur. Zouk's spinnin real shiets! Da rhythm's realli dead & Leon complained tat da Dj's lousy. LOL! Total agreement. Hrmms..or maybe i dunno howdy appreciate his kinda muzik. blehs! Chatted wif David & some of da peeps working @ Zouk before heading down to Boat Quay to look for jO for supper. In da end she left wif her frens while i stayed on to wait for da food together wif Vicky & Fuka. Hugo & his pals came along wif us & left after they finished their food. =\ Vicky, Fuka & i shared a cab home thereafter.

Session @ Zouk on Friday was orgasm! Pako & Fredrik was terrific! Wasn't a wasted trip after all. GU baby!! GU!! ( GU = Global Underground ) hohoho! They had this Zouk Military Camp before tat & everyone of us were like forced to take pictures on da Polaroid. So we got da picture instantly. Nah..not realli nice. Kinda obscene..hahha.

Getting a lil tired already. Turning in soon..*yawns* Needa get some rest & get all geared up for Mambo on Wed on CNY's eve. Wonder whether i can go anot. i hope i cud. =PpP~

Ciao mates!!

hrmmmms! Finally, i've updated my gallery after much procrastination. Wot to do i'm born lazy wot. hurhur. *winks* Do check it out yeah!

Currently talking on da fone wif jO & Rovin. Planned to go Mac's for breakfast later early in da morning. i heard my stomach growling..hehs!

Prolly be down Zouk later in da nite for some military camp event, followed by Pako & Fredrik from GU. Hope they'll be spinning some gud shiets! hoho. =P

Hehs. Came home this morning around 6.30am from Zouk. Mambo nites are definitely AWESOME! hurhur. But i guessed it's due to my absence from Zouk for approximately 2 months plus. i entered by Phuture & was greeted by Sonny da bouncer. He smiled at mi & said, " Wah! Finally u're here. So long never c u already. " Den Samuel smiled at mi too. When i got into Zouk, Leon was smirking at mi. i walked over & said hi to him, & he asked mi where i've gone to cos he hasn't seen mi for a long time. He tot i went missing so i jus told him i'm busy with work. lol. i think they missed mi. HAHAHA! =X

Last nite was great. Met up wif viCky- & jAp^d3vi|, whom i've never seen before. Usual mates were there & i got to noe some of those centre platform peeps. sheesh. Dave was down with his god-sister, Shuting. It's his 21st birthday today, so when 12 midnight came, i wished him a happy birthday & he cheekily asked for a kiss, & so i gaf him a peck on his cheek. LOL. All of us were enjoying grooving to da mambo trax, including jO!! She's mambonised. She got promoted to S-platform from under da big screen. U go gurl!! =D It's like so fun cos everybody's doing da same actions & den those peeps will follow ur actions if u're one of those on da platforms. Saw William there partying with his frens. He claimed tat he saw mi den i was like so blur, couldn't recognise him. Well, da lights are dim & in fact i found him familar so i asked jO whether tat guy was William anot & it realli turns out to be him. Gave him a big hug. Haha. He's jus like one of our sistas. LOL. Bumped into Brandon there too. His girlfriend wasn't with him, so he can go real wild & party. i noticed tat his fren looks gorgeous. Nice body..*drools*

Was actually on da S-platform den jumped to da centre platform. Sean was da 1st to go up there, followed by mi & jO came up later. Surprisingly, Weiren was already up da centre platform during my absence. He's marvellous. Had lotsa fun during Mambo. i realli enjoyed myself last nite. Alern kept teasing mi but least i did not blush. hurhur. So Mambo ended @ 3am, da one whole group of us headed to Shell for some drinks & food. It's realli a big gang of us..20 over peeps..? Bought drinks, cup noodles, smoked, talked cok, bitching..everything's done there. Hee. As da nite grew late, mates went off subsequently, leaving Alern, Jeremy, jO & mi. We sat @ Shell till around 5.40am as we realli bitched & gossipped. lol. Jeremy was telling us his Mambo experiences, Alern, as usual, was crapping & bitching, needless to say, both jO & i yak & yak & yak. LOL. Da 4 of us shared a cab. Jeremy back to Bedok where his camp is, jO back home, Alern back to his camp @ Changi & he's da last to alight. i'm da second last. When i got home, i was totally drained out but i'm glad i went to Zouk. It's realli been a long time since i stepped in Zouk. Unforgettable nite. Hehehe! =P At 7.30am, i was knocked-out. Too tired already...

Was hesitating whether to post this up anot & finally made up my mind to post it up cos i think i nid to clear up some matters.

While i was chatting in IRC jus now, someone private msg mi using this nick, f|aMe^gEr. This is da conversation between us..

[01:00] [f|aMe^gEr] ×’.\• ‹ hhhieee › •/.’×
[01:00] [zhenyi`-] yar ?
[01:00] [f|aMe^gEr] ××..·`[ [· aanåtåa r duero's ex? ·] ]´·..××
[01:00] [zhenyi`-] sup ?
[01:00] [f|aMe^gEr] ermz.. r u free to tok to?
[01:00] [zhenyi`-] uh huh.
[01:00] [zhenyi`-] wassup ?
[01:01] [f|aMe^gEr] hmmz.. actualli, u realli misunderstood duero..
[01:01] [f|aMe^gEr] he dun meant tat he wanna break wid u..
[01:01] [f|aMe^gEr] and, he realli loves u lo..
[01:01] [f|aMe^gEr] its juz a misunderstanding..
[01:01] [f|aMe^gEr] ××..·`[ [· aanåtåa 2 realli no chance to get back ler
mahx? ·] ]´·..××
[01:02] [zhenyi`-] hrmms
[01:02] [zhenyi`-] how did u noe abt this ?
[01:02] [f|aMe^gEr] well, he was realli very very upset.. he talked to mi abt
it.. being as his fren.. c him lidat like very cham..
[01:02] [f|aMe^gEr] ו`[( shø without him knowing, i come tok 2 u norx.. )]
´•×
[01:03] [f|aMe^gEr] well, i noe its none of mi business.. but..
[01:03] [zhenyi`-] hrmms
[01:03] [f|aMe^gEr] it seems a little bit ke si to c tat a couple break bcoz of
misunderstandings norx..
[01:03] [zhenyi`-] actually
[01:03] [zhenyi`-] i noe abt it
[01:03] [zhenyi`-] i noe he doesnt mean
[01:03] [zhenyi`-] he wans a break up
[01:03] [zhenyi`-] but i wan it
[01:03] [zhenyi`-] =)
[01:03] [zhenyi`-] so might as well jus say i wanna break up
[01:04] [f|aMe^gEr] +`.•·.[ döt × döt × döt ].·•.´+
[01:04] [zhenyi`-] & i told him
[01:04] [f|aMe^gEr] ..__ • oKiEz • __..
[01:04] [zhenyi`-] da reason
[01:04] [zhenyi`-] or reasons
[01:04] [zhenyi`-] y i wanna break up
[01:06] [f|aMe^gEr] †:.+. wåtåshi seë .+.:†
[01:06] [f|aMe^gEr] sry abt it..
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] nah
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] its ok
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] wot's over is over
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] he can be a better guy w/o mi
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] i dun deny tht his world may crumbled & fall for now
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] still
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] life goes on
[01:07] * f|aMe^gEr ¶:)
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] & im sure
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] he can pick himself up
[01:07] [zhenyi`-] he has no lack of gurls either
[01:08] [zhenyi`-] so finding someone suitable for him
[01:08] [zhenyi`-] aint difficult
[01:08] [f|aMe^gEr] ..__ • oKiEz • __..
[01:09] [zhenyi`-] & frm wot i noe
[01:09] [zhenyi`-] several gurls are interested in him
[01:09] [zhenyi`-] so he can divert his sadness into happiness if he wans to
[01:12] [f|aMe^gEr] ..__ • oKiEz • __..

Initially, i tot it was Richard who asked her to tok to mi but she said it wasn't him but was her who wanted to tok to mi. Well, he's got nice frens there yeah. i'm not trying to be sarcastic okies. duhs. So..as wot she said, she noes she's not in any position to comment anything about this issue but still she asked mi to reconsider him again. See da irony? =.=!!

This portion is for Richard's eyes.. :
Thou we've broken up, i noe tat u still haf feelings for mi. i dun deny tat our ending ain't wot a couple wans & i, myself oso dun wish to happen. But things dun go our way as wot we've had in mind. Sad to say tat it's a pity we had to go on our separate ways but look at this in a different light. Going on our own actually puts u in a wider horizon. U've got more choices to choose for urself. Get urself someone who suits u even more than i do, someone who's even more understanding than i do, someone who's even more caring than i do, someone who's willing to listen to ur words even more than i do, & lastly, someone who loves u even more than i do. We're still young & da path ahead of us is long. We never noe wot's gonna happen to us cos we can't tell. Da future is unpredictable. Maybe for now, u might think tat we're actually suitable for each other, but who noes in da next few weeks, u might find urself detesting mi more than u love mi. U might think tat i'm spouting rubbish but pls go think about it. It does make sense. We're together for onli a month plus & u're sure i'm da one for u. This is realli a bad joke. U can forget about da stuffs about getting engaged cos it's realli not da right time for us yet. U're rushing into things too fast. i admit i'm at fault for promising u tat i'll be engaged to u. It was meant to be a white lie but this is too serious a mistake i've made. Hereby, i apologise to u. Wot's over is over. Dun brood over it. We can never turn back time. This is wot we call regrets. Maybe this ain't a regret for mi cos i always tell myself not to regret for all da things i've done as i mus be responsible for my own actions. i chose not to regret about this break-up thingy & i hope u'll feel da same too. U've been reproaching urself for not treating mi gud enuff, for not cherishing mi when i'm wif u..blah blah blah. But wot i can say is..minus away da hot-temper-ness, da attitude-ness & da possessive-ness, u make a gud boyfriend. i thank u for giving mi ur all, always giving in to mi & ur countless attempts to make mi happy. i understand tat u've put in all ur love & everything into our this particular relationship. Well, it takes 2 hands to clap. Maybe initially i'm da one putting in lotsa effort & den i got tired & stuffs, tat's why we ended up like this? U get wot i'm trying to put across? i hope u realli do understand. It's not tat i dun wanna give u another chance to prove tat u can change to someone who fits MY bill, cos i wan someone who fits my bill inbornly, not someone who has his own style or character changes himself jus to fit into my world. U're da key while i'm da lock on da door. Our relationship resembles da process of opening da door. U hafta be da correct key in order to unlock da lock & open da door. In our situation, u're da wrong key which can't unlock da lock & open da door thou u fit into da seams. Many of us encountered da same thing as well, not onli u. Da brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, u can't go on well in life until u let go of ur past failures & heartaches. =) Anyway, we're still frens..? Everything starts off as frens rite? *cheerios*

Okies..enuff airing of dirty linens. blehs! =P

Hehs..under influence, linz got herself a blogsite! i told her to view my blog as i've jus updated it & den she go so hyped about blogging & had herself registered to blogspot. LOL. So mates..take some time to visit her bloggie yea? i've linked her already. *winks* ^^

Jus got home from Cafe Cartel @ Siglap. Slack a lil there cos there's simply nothing to do. Yeah..i'm a Full-Time Slacker currently. =D

Ordered this horrible & sour drink. Pink Grapefruit. It's realli sourish tat when i sipped a lil from da straw, my whole face shrinked! U got da idea?



Anyway, i finished da drink thou it tasted real yucky. It's money u noe..?

Was actually shopping @ Bugis. linz & i walked around, looking at da apparrels. We both shaked our heads. There's nothing much for us to buy. Da clothes doesn't realli suit us & i concluded tat Bugis is a VERY boring place. Von met us for awhile & in less than 10 minutes, she went off with her fren. She's grown prettier. hurhur. Chris & Chiam came & we had dinner @ Yoshinoya. They had this scallop bowl. Kinda yummy. Maybe it's due to our hunger? Hee. i dunno. =P

Passed Dave his bday pressie today. Was supposed to meet him @ Great World but in da end he came down to Bugis to collect his "goods". LOL. So linz, him & i, slacked at Starbucks, chatted a lil & after awhile, he went off to complete his report @ home.

So this is how i spent my day today. Nothing interesting to spice up my life.



This is my fags for today. Davidoff Menthol Lights.

- Above pictures in courtesy of Kailin's Nokia 7250 - *smiles*

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~>.<~ feeling so hungry now & i can't get into sleep! Ate an egg tart jus now while doing Dave's pressie & drank 100+ to keep mi awake cos Eunice was around jus now & i'm supposed to accompany her thru da nite. She's feeling a lil down. Oh yah..da motive of mi updating again is to RANT!! Darn!! i'm famished! i had a filling dinner but my stomach was growling around 1+ a.m earlier! i dun think my metabolism rate is high. Cudn't be tat..maybe it is..? i dunno!! My whole god damn blardy body system is fuking SPOILT! hurhur. Okies..i'm da cause of it. Yeah..i'm da mighty one who defeats my own wall of defense & i'm wondering wot's wrong wif mi. Maybe i haf worms tat are 20cm long in my stomach tat eats up every single bit of food i gluttoned down even before my food started digesting. This is one BIG possibility. Ok..i'm starting to let my imaginations go wild. Prolly due to da lack of sleep, tat's y i'm ranting some nonsensical nonsense. Sorry peeps..i think i'm bonkers. Anyone wif da antidote? Come to my rescue...Q U I K!!

Hey hey!! Davie..if u're viewing this post, i've got gud news for u! i've finished doing ur pressie! Wahahaha! Fast anot? hurhur. i'm wudi k!! i rok baybehhhh!! okokkkk. Enuff of my stupid shiets. i'm jus..hurhur..happy. Oh..erm..ecstatic! Hiaks! i'm so pro!! Next year buy u ur Diablo k? LOL!! ..V.(o.o) *cheerios*

Eunice in da house! Silly gurl. Shall not spill anything here. hee. =X She's sound aslp @ da moment. hurhur.

Had dinner wif my family after meeting linz & Roy @ tamp earlier in da evening. We walked around aimlessly. Well, i do haf an aim..tat is to buy some clothings for CNY. i din get much..jus a top frm Mango. Think this isn't an apparel for CNY cos it's black. Jus a normal top i wud buy. Anyway, quite a gud bargain. lol. cos it onli cost mi SGD $13. =D

Hehs..i'm almost done wif Dave's pressie. Was actually procrastinating his "project", putting off time after time & onli realli get down to it jus now. hahaha. Yeah..i'm lazy! blehs! =PpP~ Luckily i'm left wif a lil wee bit to finish up tat thingy so meeting da dateline shudn't be a problem to mi. kekeke!

By da way, i've linked Elena to my blog. Frequent her blogsite yeah? She's a cutiepie BUT too bad she's blissfully attached..so wipe da idea off ya minds!! *winks*

*yawns* feeling so tired..

Ciaos!!

*p/s: shud i continue working on da "project" ? maybe i shud get some rest as i'm having a long day ahead. how? -mind wonders-*

Had a lil tiff wif dear jus now. i dunno wot came over mi. Something's amiss somewhere. i dunno wot issit. Dear has been complaining about da way i'm treating him. He said my words hurt him. Maybe i dunno how to express myself well enuff? Or do i haf this fear in mi tat i'll lose him anytime? Or issit i'm not understanding enuff? Or has my love for him faded? i can't even answer such simple questions myself. i doubt myself. i dun doubt his love, trust & faith for mi but i jus doubt myself. i can't give him da eternity tat he wans..i can onli give him da present. i can't give him da gentleness tat he wans..i can onli give him da way i am now. i seriously think tat i haf a fukin shitty attitude problem. WOT CAME OVER MI MAN!! *arghhhhhhhhs!* =(

My 1st post of 2004..bad one. Sighs. i've got NO New Year resolutions. Pretty bad case for mi. i've got no goals at all..nothing for this brand new year. i think da onli thing i can look forward to is da trip to aussie in June but den again..all these needa re-confirmed again. i'm so restless..seems like i'm rather bort than restless. Hrmms..shall i start working on Dave's bday pressie? *shrugs* i think tat shud kill some time while waiting for dear to reach home. o.O? blehs!

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