It seems that the only friend i have is him. For when he's not around in town, i'm left with no other by myself. This goes to show that i'm not the gal with heaps of friends u all thought i am. Solitude replaced him gradually as my companion, where my very own shadows began talking to me. Everyday feels so dull and listless.

Waiting for my forever-so-quiet mobile phone to emit sound is just like waiting for the sky to drop me some money. But whenever it rings, i know it's him. Be it sms-es or calls, i'll frantically open my clam-shelled phone to see what's in store for me. It just smoothered me somehow.

He just called. So happy to hear his voice on the other end. Hah..

Yup, i'm missing him.

Just got home not long ago from the airport. Mr Lau should be in mid-air now, flying to Rockhampton, Australia, for Exercise Wallaby 2005. Sighs, he'll be gone for 14 days and that simply means 14 days of loneliness.

Thinking of having to spend the 14 days, including 2 public holidays back to back, without him, makes me feel queasy all over. Yes, i still have friends for companionship but the feeling is differrent. It's like part of me has went away, temporary.

Maybe i could fill my emptiness with clubbing. Maybe crashing with stacks of vcds in front of the tv, munching on highly-saturated fat contents snacks and being a obese couch potato till he comes back. Maybe with sleeping my time away and lead a lazy life. How about chucking bits and pieces of his face, his smile, his touch, his hugs + kisses, his voice and his BAWU(lol) into my head to form an image of him? 14 days will surely past real soon..

Anyway, we went Zouk last night. The revamped look is much more classier thou it seems a tad smaller. Part of S-platform is gone. Members is b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l. Phuture is spacious added coolness. TOILETS! Yea, they got a big water basin for everyone. i'll check out Winebar and Velvet the next time round. Overall, their interior resembled much of that of KL's Zouk. Mushroom architecture.

So we enjoyed ourselves whole night long

Hehs, think my previous post twitched somebody's eye ya? Haaha. Yvonne is forever MIA-ing somewhere out there, only to pop out when she thinks there is a need to. So, you can't possibly be such a green-eyed monster and get jealous cos i didn't add ya name. No worries, i'll remember to add u to my list the next time(if there is).

Weekends ain't great for the past week. Roger has gotten his head broken. LOL. Actually, it's not broken. He knocked and hit the occipital of his head while playing against TPJC. He blacked out for less than a minute and soon regained consciousness. Everything seemed fine, except that he walked around alot and started talking things. Then, he couldn't hold out any longer and complained about the pain he felt. One of his team-mate and i took a cab and headed NUH's A&E Department. Normal procedures followed. They wanted to put him under 24-hour observation cos he could not remember the incident but was orientated. No X-rays nor CT scans were done. Eventually, he did an AOR discharge.

i was scared stiffed for 2 days.

u guessed it right, its Wednesday. Blogging time. i managed to rise very early on Sunday just to go Kallang for his games. hehehe! It was such a close fight between SAFSA & SRC's Red Sox, and they eventually lost in the tie-breaker. Afterall, it was a game that lacked of luck but played well.

Recently, i've been thinking. i used to think that having many frens will brighten my life and as i grow older i came to realise that i just need a few or a handful of close-knitted frens. But i soon found out that i dun even have a few frens...

Peeps from i knew from Zouk, come and go. Big gang split and formed new small groups. Small groups split again, and formed newer smaller groups. Then, new groups came and joins newer smaller groups, thus one big gang. And the cycle goes on.

Frens i came to know online, are somehow busy with their own lives. Just like how busy i am with my own life now.

School frens, embarking a new phase in life. Few bothers to keep in touch and the rest vanished into another dimension.

So who realli can i call, a fren? Those who comes and goes? Those who are busy with their own lives? Those who vanished into thin air without any news? Or those who shared mutual friendships between, always think of me, always keep me close to their hearts, the way i do?

i seriously ain't sure who are those that fall into the last category cos not all treats me the way i treat them. i may regard this person as a close fren, but he/she might not feel the same. Got it? Why can't each and everyone be more open and transparent of one's feelings? Why can't each and everyone be one's frens? Why do we possess such a high intelligent mind that complicates simple relations which blinded the goodness of humanity? i can't seem to understand but i know the world without all these nasty augmentations, will be a better happy place to live in.

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- linz - : Truely understands the meaning of "Friends" and never fails to make me feel unwanted.

- Chris - : linz love. Forever bringing in laughter.

Not forgetting Roy. Thou never see him much now, he's always there for anyone.

- Eunice - : Miles apart, but strongly hold on to ties, never to let go. One whom i can go wild with
and at the end of the day, she's the one to pull my reigns back to earth.

- David - : Seldom meet up but often club together when the big names are in town. i'm so
sorry for not being able to be down for all ya past marvellous gigs.

- Huanbin - : Bad at words, good at heart. Has his soft side too. Nonetheless, a great companion.
Be it beer or Martell.

- GG - : Someone whom i know i can rely on when in need.

- Jieyun - : Volleyball that bonds us and bothers to keep in touch with me, at least.

- Shiya - : My only childhood friend.

Thanks to the above mentioned. Thanks for being always there. And i mean always. i know i missed out a couple of names. Not that i dun treat u all as frens, but i'm still searching the mutual feeling of regarding me as frens from you all to me.

One thing i know for sure, our paths did crossed.

Back again on a Wednesday. Work is hectic these few days cos my Doct's going on a one-day leave tomorrow. One day u might say, but the aftermath is definitely horrendous. i can see myself slogging like there's no tomorrow when he comes back. Patients all want to see him and i can understand why. Some commented that he's very professional (how do u define professional btw?), some say that he's got good skills for innoculation (i'm trying to be chim, haha) and i reckon that all these comes with years of experiences. One thing i noe for sure, he definitely got the magic touch.

Went for kAi's birthday@chocbar on Saturday. No clubbing cos Mr Lau got 2 games on Sunday morning. i haven't seen him playing softball for sucha loooooong time. Waking up in the early mornings turns me off completely but i'll try harder to wake up in time jus to watch him play. u noe, guys can be very attractive when they play sports! u get to see the manly side of him. Not that he's not man enuff, it just simply bring out a different side of him.

Ms Eunice Ng, if u're reading this, i wanna let u noe that i'm excited all over cos u're coming back earlier than expected! *SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAMS* So when everything is confirm, let me noe the details so i can have time for some planning. Dun keep me waiting ya? hur! <3 <3

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